My baby turns one tomorrow. I told my husband I didn’t want to put him to sleep because if tomorrow never comes, he won’t turn one. That didn’t work, he still went to bed at 8pm. So maybe if I don’t go to sleep tomorrow won’t come and he won’t turn one. It’s 11:20pm. That probably won’t work either. It’s really amazing that one year ago, I was desperate (and I mean DESPERATE) for him to be born. I’m pretty sure this was the time that I asked for a epidural. The famous epidural that I wouldn’t get since my labor went so fast…but that’s a different story. Flash forward to right now and I desperately don’t want him to be one year old. He’s my baby. From tomorrow on I won’t have a baby, I’ll have a 1 year old. There will be no more firsts. He has experienced every holiday and a birthday too. He’s walked, talked, danced and done all of the amazing growing things that babies do. Now, he’s just going to grow and grow and become a master of all these skills and more. I’ve watched it happen three other times. The babies just grow up! Why?? Can’t I just go back to when they were tiny and need me and needed to nurse and looked at me and gave me those first smiles. I miss that. It goes too fast.
TIME moves too fast. Some people think that if you do nothing time will move slowly. They’re wrong. Time still goes by fast you’re just going to be bored while it goes. We are busy busy people. We fill our hours with house projects and productivity (i.e. work) and family outings and more. We just can’t sit still! Why would we do that when there is to much to do? Maybe it does make the time go a little faster but doesn’t the old saying go, time flies when you’re having fun? Maybe that’s what we’re doing all the time, having fun, and that’s why time flies.
Happy First Birthday my sweet fourth boy. It’s still 33 minutes away but I know that these last minutes before your birthday are going to fly by. I think I’ll go watch you sleep as a baby for just a little longer. There’s still time…maybe.